Developing Awareness of Subtle Energy

Updated: Sep 7, 2020


One of the greatest gifts we have is the gift of intuition. The more aware we become of our intuition the greater our psychic abilities. We all have these abilities and it is up to each of us to understand, discover, and ignite our gifts. One of the main factors that stop us from living authentically and in our truest potential as intuitive beings is fear, and fear can be quite paralyzing.

The first time I heard that we are all psychic was from my clairvoyant friend who I shared an apartment in Washington, DC, in the late ’90s. She would always say to me that we are all psychic, but I never believed in the possibility that I could be psychic. I always thought that people were either born with the ability or they were not. I considered myself one of the latter.

How ironic that a psychic tells me that I am psychic (that we all are), but I still did not believe this for myself! Nevertheless, thanks to my friend, I became very much aware of my intuition (my gut feelings) but I did not understand what it truly meant to be psychic until I was consciously aware that I was experiencing it for myself twenty years later.

In June 2012, when I moved to England, I joined a yoga studio in central London. I had been practicing yoga for 10 years so everywhere I moved to, I would always seek out a yoga studio or a yoga class. The yoga studio was also a place that offered holistic treatments and held workshops on various topics related to the mind, body, and spirit.

After a couple of months of attending yoga classes, I noticed a workshop scheduled in September about psychic development. The title of the workshop was Developing our Awareness of Subtle Energy, and there was a small description below it about learning about psychic abilities. My first thought was how cool such a topic exists in a "normal" and public space and that anyone could just sign up and attend! I signed up.

On September 15, 2012, I arrived at the workshop and I was feeling quite nervous. It was my first time going to anything "public" on the topic and found myself feeling odd. Up until then, I had only spoken to my friend; and she would never tell anyone she was clairvoyant. Most people, she would say, would either laugh or run away in fear thinking that she could ‘see’ everything about their lives, which of course wasn’t true. I always felt comfortable around her and was utterly fascinated by her stories. Outside of this safe space, however, I would react quite differently.

At the workshop, I sat towards the back trying to hide. I felt like I was somewhere I wasn’t supposed to be. The guy leading the workshop was very down to earth and funny so I started to feel at ease from the start. He then explained what would be happening throughout the day and how we would all be practicing with each other.

I suddenly felt my face turn bright red because I was there to listen, not to participate! I wasn’t psychic and I was repeating the words in my head. I was ready to raise my hand to excuse myself. However, at that moment, I whispered to the person next to me that this wasn’t what I thought it was going to be because I was not there to practice. When the other person concurred and felt the same, I relaxed; and thankfully, I ended up staying.

We were first guided through a visual meditation to ground ourselves, open up our chakras, and connect to Source above and earth below. I had never meditated like this before. The connection I felt sent me into an automatic state of bliss. I felt my energetic body expanding and floating. It was the most incredible feeling. I had entered this state of being very easily and automatically as if I had been practicing for years.

When we came out of the meditation, we were paired up to practice psychometry, which is basically where you hold a personal item of another person and you wait to see what information you get from that object. The woman I paired up with gave me her hair clip; which I held in my hand for a while. In my mind, I was repeating “I can’t do this. This is ridiculous. I have nothing to tell her”.

At the same time, I was starting to feel quite sick from holding the hair clip. I didn’t want to hold it and I wanted to give it back to her. I was actually feeling nauseous. I started to feel embarrassed that this is what I was feeling. I started to wonder what was going on. Could I be that bothered by this woman’s hair clip? I couldn’t wait until the session was over so I could give it back to her.

We were then asked to share with each other any thoughts and visions that would come to mind. I immediately apologized to the woman and told her that nothing had come up. While everyone else was sharing out loud their experiences and validations; I finally got the courage to quietly tell her how I felt about her hair clip. I was ag