Our 50 Trillion Eyes

Updated: Sep 4, 2020

When I was setting up my website and writing the ‘about’ section; I wanted to describe what I meant by our ‘inner sight’. I wrote the following:

Seeing clearly is using all of our intuitive senses – our inner sight. With our inner sight we see through our skin and bones, through our eyes and ears, through our hands and feet, and through our head and heart. Accessing our inner sight means seeing through everything. When we see clearly, we find truth and step fully into our own power.

Then last month, I decided to delete this paragraph because I couldn’t fully understand why I wrote it. I knew it was true, but it felt ‘too weird’ so I decided to delete it – for now – until I was sure. I tend to go through this type of thought process all of the time. I am continuously thinking and silently speaking in my mind wanting to share knowledge to a wider audience, but I usually refrain. I become filled with self-doubt because I have no point of reference.

Having no point of reference is a belief we can take on when we go through life believing we only gain information and knowledge through our external world. Sometimes our cultural and educational environment do not offer a deeper understanding of ourselves as intuitive beings. I had a great education by conventional standards. The education I received at school and University offered me the opportunity to have a great career while travelling the world helping others and learning. However, this was only a fraction of what truly exists until a greater awareness starts to unfold, and that greater awareness is our inner knowledge and wisdom.

When I attended Bruce Lipton’s workshop on The Biology of Belief in London on October 27th, I was overjoyed to learn in great detail the molecular structure of our cells. The moment I saw the magnified picture of the cell’s membrane, I realized that what I wrote above, describing our inner sight, made perfect sense. I also remembered a dream I had, a year ago, where I saw something similar except I was inside and outside a clear bubble with portals. The universe was all around me. As I was viewing this invisible barrier around me I remember feeling a sense of disconnection between who I was on the inside and my self on the outside. In my dream, the person on the outside was trying to reach the person on the inside.

Lipton explained that every single cell in our body has a crystalline-like membrane; nothing can get in or out except through the use of receptor-effector proteins. The outside and inside of our cell membrane is lined with many receptors which act like antennas picking up information (signals) from all around. A ‘channel’ (portal) opens through the membrane to allow information to go in and out of the cell membrane.

What keeps our cells in motion is a source of energy that is outside and inside of our cells. Through my own mindfulness practice, I understand that this source of energy is what we call God (or Universe) and connects us all together; and through various dimensions. Subtle energy exists in multiple ways and can be accessed in multiple ways. We – as individuals, as a collective, and as source – are constantly guiding ourselves.

Our whole body is made up of these single cells, so I envision our human body as one massive moving antenna receiving and emitting information all of the time; or as Bruce Lipton described it best: we have a cooperative community of approximately 50 trillion single-celled citizens. The cell membrane was the perfect visual I needed to understand, from an intuitive healing perspective, how we – as sentient beings – channel energy (information).

I then remembered the following story:

In 1979, when my brother was 18 months old and I was 3 years old, my parents organized a family trip to San Francisco, California. Someone recommended that they go to a restaurant that had spectacular views of the Golden Gate Bridge. The restaurant was quite high up and had a beautiful terrace. In one of those terrifying moments which most parents fear, my brother went missing. As they were calling after him, they noticed that there was a small crowd of people gathering at the edge of the terrace.

As my parents approached, they saw that my brother had squeezed his way through the rails and was walking (toddling) along the edge of the building. In that moment they both conjured up some super amazing strength to keep calm and gently call after my brother who slowly toddled his way into their arms. The crowd had kept very still not wanting to make any noises that might scare my brother.

The thought of what could have happened to my brother if he had lost his step or been swept away by a gush of wind or any number of things was a shock to my parents. They have very little memory of the event because it was so shocking to them. I was with my grandparents so I was not a witness to what happened. I had no conscious memory of this visit to San Francisco, but I had heard this story told on a few occasions throughout my life.

A few years after this incident, when I was around 11 years old, we were visiting my aunt in Queens, NY. She lived in an apartment building on the sixth floor. I had been playing in one of the bedrooms with my brother, but after a while I left the room to go elsewhere. I remember hearing a sound which sounded like my brother had fallen out of the window. I suddenly went into distress. I panicked and started crying. Between sobs I was telling my mother that my brother had fallen out of the window.

I felt a pain in my chest from the fear that my brother was dead. While my mom was reassuring me that he had not fallen out of the window, my brother walks out of the bedroom wondering what was going on. I was so convinced that he had fallen out of the window that I can still remember how confused I felt. My mother also took me to the window to show me that the window had bars on them so he could not have been able to fall out of the window. The whole scenario had been so real to me that I never forgot it because it was so odd.

I linked these two events for the first time this past summer, when my mother was visiting me in England; as we were discussing energy, information, and emotions. However, what I found striking about this situation is how real a belief was ingrained in my subconscious that was not real but was interpreted as real through emotions I had taken on at the age of three.

Studies have shown that children in the first seven years predominantly operate in theta brain waves. This is the brain wave that one is taken into by hypnotherapists and through other healing modalities to access the subconscious mind. As children, we download information directly into our subconscious where it can be hardwired as synaptic pathways. After this age, we become less susceptible as we access higher frequency alpha waves and start to differentiate information more easily.

The emotions that my parents experienced that day in 1979; were communicated through their words and thoughts. Our thoughts and emotions are powerful because they create our experiences, but they can also have an effect on another person’s experiences. As a three year old, I would not have been able to differential the emotions that my parents were feeling and projecting (emitting). For some reason, at that moment, my many little receptors picked up this information through the subtle energy that surrounds us and it made its way into my subconscious mind where it remained as truth until I was able to release it a few years later. I was not a witness of what took place in San Francisco, but I could see and feel the emotions my parents felt that day. I had ‘seen’ through their 50 trillion eyes.

As energetic beings, our words and our thoughts are energy, and our words and our thoughts carry our emotions. We are not only receiving information from our surroundings, we are also projecting information through thoughts and emotions into our environment. Through science we can now ‘see’ the mechanics of how this process of energy transfer works.

As an eleven year old in my aunt’s apartment, I was releasing energy (information) that did not belong to me and it was dislodge from my subconscious the moment I saw my brother alive in front of me. I was processing (healing) the emotions I picked up from my mother. The moment my brother was standing in front of me I had no choice but to release this core belief and emotion.

When we awaken to a truth that we were convinced it can be shocking to the system. I use this example from my childhood, in particular, because although it may seem ‘simple’ and I naturally released energy (information) that did not belong to me early in life, how many more beliefs and emotions do we ‘take on’ that are not ours? How many things have we observed and taken on as a child that are not our own? Furthermore, how many patterns are we currently repeating that are hiding in our subconscious and manifesting in our physical reality as a negative thought pattern, as a physical ailment, a disease, or even a miscarriage, perhaps? What did we observe in our surroundings as children that may be having an impact in our present moment?

There are limiting beliefs that we may have learned through observation or that we may have ‘inherited’ while in our mother’s womb – from a limiting belief that she took on when she was in her mother’s womb – and so on and so forth (same applies to the father, of course). Becoming aware of these belief systems and healing them in this lifetime from our maternal and paternal lineages is what is referred to as ancestral healing. Through this process of clearing, we uncovering what was buried under layers of unhealthy programming. As we uncover and release (heal) this energy we make room for new information to come to the surface. We can also see more clearly.

Awakening to remember – it is not a blame game, it is one of awareness

How many people have you heard say about children, “They won’t remember, so don’t worry!” As a mother, I hear this all the time, but while I have two children, who at the moment are under the age of 7, I am not going to go crazy about it either. Their souls chose the life they were born into; and their parents with all their limiting beliefs (and wisdom I might add! ).

With awareness comes gratitude because, as we remember, we consciously choose to experience the life we want to live. We live in a time when science and ancient wisdom is revealing itself in troves – rising from the graves in which they were buried. We also live in a time when alternative and complimentary medicine are becoming more and more common place.

There is so much that I took away from Lipton’s workshop, but the highlight for me was the cell’s membrane. It helped me make sense of the many eyes that we see through. What I released energetically that day was a layer of self-doubt that kept me from sharing my own truth. The more layers I shed which do not belong to me, the more portals I open to access what lies beyond the invisible barrier that keeps me separate from my true Self and become more whole. The more gates and portals we open as a collective the more whole we will feel as a community of global citizens working together.

And lastly, what evidence are we actually looking for? What limiting beliefs do we take on as a collective that limits our perception to our two physical eyes only? We have approximately 50 trillion other eyes to look through; plus the other 50 trillion eyes of the other person and so on. I see science and spirituality as one – they go hand in hand. Merging the two disciplines and finding balance between our external and internal wisdom removes our invisible blindfold. To anyone who says that they are not psychic, not a healer, not a medium, not this, or not that; I say, you are already doing it!

We are energetic beings with limitless potential, yet limiting beliefs keep us small.